Jackson had pneumococcal meningitis when he was just 7 weeks old. He spent 3 days in the childrens intensive care unit in the University Hospital of Wales and was then transferred to our local hospital but he suffered from seizures and was transferred back to the University Hospital of Wales in Cardiff, where he spent 6 weeks and suffered with Hydrocephalis and had to have a VP Shunt. Jackson was then transfered back to our local hospital and after 2 weeks we were alowed to take him home. The meningitis left him brain damaged and he was fed through an NG tube, although he did have some food through his mouth - he loved cottage pie! He was also on medication to control his seizures - phenabarbitone, but this made him very sleepy and after 9 months the doctors decided to change his medication to Epilim. We saw a big difference within a few days! He was deffinatley more awake and more alert. Jackson loved to go swimming and going for walks in his pram. He loved being cuddled up and having a story read to him, he was a huge Thomas the Tank fan and had everything! He loved chasing his dog Molly around the living room in his walker. When I put Jackson to bed on the 5th December 2009 he was fine, and when his daddy came in from working a night shift and checked him in the early hours of the morning he was fine, but when i went into his bedroom in the morning he had stopped breathing. We phoned for an ambulence straight away and he was taken straight to A&E but there was nothing they could do for him. Our little man was just too tired to carry on with the fight. He left us 2 weeks before his 1st birthday and 2 weeks before christmas and we will love and miss him so much everyday untill we meet again xxXXxx ***A Poem I wrote for Jackson*** Its been 6 months since you left us, I still cant believe its true, For ever since you've been gone, My whole lifes turned blue. I remember it like it was yesterday, The tears, the heartache, the pain, I know my life wont be the same, Untill that day we meet again. I miss your bright blue eyes, And that cheeky grin, Your litte button nose and your double chin. I know that your still here with me, Some may think im mad, But its the only thing that gets me through the days i feel so sad. I know we'll be together again, We'll have a fresh new start, But untill that day comes, You'll always be in my memory and forever in my heart ***Chris's Fathers Day Poem*** Happy fathers day daddy, I love you with all my heart, I only wish i was there with you, instead of being up here so far apart. You are the best daddy in the world you always give me the smiles, expecially when we'd sing and dance, to 'i would walk 500 miles' I hope you have a nice day, please dont feel to sad, just think back to this time last year and all the fun we had. I know you miss me so very much, i feel the same way too, but please know daddy, that i am always here with you. ***Some Poems I like*** Thinking of you is easy We remember you each day The heartbreak that we feel Just never goes away Nothing is the same no more As we try to carry on We want the way it was before We found out you was gone Yes we have our memories We also have the pain But all we ever wanted Was to have you home again *** If I could have a lifetime wish, A dream that would come true, I'd pray to God with all my heart For yesterday and you. A thousand words can't bring you back; I know because I've tried. And neither will a million tears, I know because I've cried. You left behind a broken heart And lots of memories too. But I never wanted memories, I only wanted you. *** We do not need a special day to bring you to our minds. The days we do not think of you are very hard to find. Each morning when we awake we know that you are gone. And no one knows the heartache as we try to carry on. Our hearts still ache with sadness and secret tears still flow. What it meant to lose you no one will ever know. Our thoughts are always with you, your place no one can fill. In life we loved you dearly; in death we love you still. *** Have you ever had a son yhat meant the world to you, One you loved so very much and miss him like we do, Have you ever had a heartache and felt such bitter pain, And shed a million tears that drop like falling rain, If you have never had this feeling, then we hope you never do, For when god takes your son away, he takes a part of you, Our hearts are full of memories we cherish them with care, The way you had to leave us will always be unfair, You were someone so very special, what more is there to say, Except to wish with all our hearts son, that you were here today ***